Dear Diary,
I woke up one day and found out I was sick. I don't know how it happened, when or why. I'm sure other people can give many different reasons, but you don't know me well enough to give any. I don't need to spend time figuring out why it happened I just need to see about "fixin'" it. So that is my goal. I hate goals because I give up before I even get started. Today is a new day and I am going to start...nah...I'll start with yesterday. "Why", you ask, because I want to start with something good that I have done. You want to know what it is? Here it is.......(drum roll please).......I walked a mile!
Now that was OK for me, actually the week before I walked two miles, but I have to look at the good side of things. I goofed at lunch today and really blew it! OK, so I blew it...it isn't the end of the world, but maybe for me it will be. I can't let myself think like that so I'll try to stop.
I think I am my own "worse" enemy sometimes. I can be SO brutal with my self talk. The Bible says, "as a man thinketh in his heart so is he..." well, what I think in my heart is very destructive. This doesn't help me, and I need to change it. It seems like I can never win with my weight. That's my problem...maybe I need to ask the Lord to help me and set some goals for myself. If feel SOOOOO guilty about almost everything in my life. Every night when I go to sleep I say to myself, "I can't believe you did this to yourself! You can't do anything right." This is not true. With God's help my husband and I have raised 4 Godly children who love the Lord.
So starting tonight I will look in the mirror and tell myself something good about me and thank the Lord for ME.
Tomorrow, I will walk at least one 12 minute mile and clean the cobwebs out of my house. First I'll read my Bible and ask the Lord to help me before my feet get out of bed in the morning.
Good night Dear Diary.
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